back for a while

It's been ages since i blogged, been really busy.. There's so much to do, u don't really get the time to think about anything at all.. Can't believe just the beginning of hols could make me think excessively again.. Hols good, bad? I don't know my answer to that..

Even if u've been really busy, people doesn't necessarily have to understand that..
Even when u feel very happy, people doesn't have to share it with you..
Even if u are down, people doesn't really want to know about that..

Yea, those are the disadvantages you get when you're alone..
and those are definitely facts you have to suck up with,
Well, the universal fact, we humans are individuals..

Life's just a blur now, you live because you have to, not because you want to?
Do you dare to leave everything behind, to pursue what you want which seems so far away?
I really hope to be able to brave up, and just do it rather than staring at others with jealousy..
But also, i really fear the regret that might follow behind..

Grieve strikes hard, very hard when u know there's so much you want
But in reality, of all those you want, nothing you own or can have
Do i blame myself, for being too ambitious?

Is this life? go with the flow? feel contented?
For sure, i won't be able to accept that, i refuse to..

Black week...

My laptop DIED O.O

it's barely one n a half years old n it DIED.
Just like that, from motherboard failure disease

My new moto : no more compaq laptops!!!

i seriously took great care of my laptop kay..
i even still cover its keyboard with the sponge thing that comes with the packaging..
i always pack its wire up nicely everytime i finished using it and tuck it into a safe corner..
PLUS i clean it every week!!!
i don't download songs or videos and i have installed three types of antivirus in it!
then WHYYYY....

That com shop guy:

'i don't know the reason why, it's very complex, currently we don't have the technology to fix a motherboard yet, so we really don't know why this happens 0.0!!!'

SIGH anyway, there's nuthin i could do to revive it besides paying RM950 for a new motherboard, it's not worth it anyway... sigh

Me in serious love with insprational songs lately, no more emos for the first time le!

Heart 'No Boundaries' by Kris Allen,
although i support Adam Lambart

HEART 'The Climb' by Miley Cyrus, yes i am bimbo HAHA

*Yawn* sleepy, i tot i still haf somethin to say but i guess i forgot whats it eeeks!

Goooooodniteeeeee =)

Not again

i feel so tired, everyday.. there's too many things to be done in a day with only some miserable 10 progressive hours..

sigh.. i hope this feeling doesnt come back to me..

hate to say it, but i tink i XXXX X

sigh

Yay! Yay!

Results are out!

although its not really up to my expectations..
budden still better than none lah haha..
hoped that i could get one more A, but missed by abit, hmmph!
3 As still okay lah..
now i'll ask around for presents!

hehehehe =p

Dun tink.. dun tink anymore..

happy.. its a different kind of happy i guess..

i still am phobia of certain places and events..
and i frighten ppl when i react so weirdly..

miss, think
these are the words i dare not say anymore..
they are words where i can only hide deep down within me
i am afraid..
of somewhat something i do not know

but dun worry, i'm not thinkin that much anymore
i haf been trained to divert my attention when that happens

i could survive now, i know i would..
be happy for me, as i am for myself =)