2nd week of the semester

i tink i hafta admit now..
i might not be good in dwelling with stress after all..
somehow i noe i'm stressed up internally
i try not to show it to ppl, not to let down my guard
i start grinding my teeth in my sleep again
many nights lately without fail
mom hafta frighten me awake so that i will stop
or not my mouth n teeth would rely hurt in the morning
n everytime i was frightened awake, i would be in a position
whereby my hands are grasped tight,
while the rest of my body are tense
my teeth n mouth really hurts
i couldnt bite food with ease
dare me, i could cry out anytime
everything's not goin well
everything's not goin right
could someone, anyone,
try to cheer me up?

I have a genius 'brother'..

Today, when 'he' was chatting wit me.. 'he' suddenly sent me a link, and said:

she: dis 1...sell branded bags 1...shud be cheap...

So, very swiftly i clicked on da link.. and immediately the bags caught my attention 0.0
Before even scrolling the pages to explore, i asked her back:

Me:   0.0
        the bag ori wan ah

Without second thoughts, she:  u gila ar? s'pore whr got fake stuff 1?

Outrageously, Me:

 Hellooo!! it's coach OK!!???

 YOU SOMMORE DARE SAY SHUD B CHEAP
 u DAM DUMB MANN
 even one miserable outdated purse

 oso can cost 200 SGD okay!!!
 STOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPID

Very unexpectedly, she:

coach is a brand?

i oso din hear b4 coach and kate spade...i somemore tot coach as in 1st coach dat coach...HOW I NOW WOR!!! THEY WERE DISTRIBUTING FLYERS IN SKOL....MEANS ITS FOR STUDENTS TO BUY LAH!!!! FOR STUDENTS WHR WILL EXP WOR!!!!!

Me:

*faint

She:
*din faint

Then, i realised.. i have the smartest 'brother' in the whole universe =.="""""""""""""""""""""

Note to God lyrics Charice

If I wrote a note to God
I would speak whats in my soul
I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away,
For love to overflow
If I wrote a note to God
I'd pour my heart out on each page
I'd ask for war to end
For peace to mend this world
I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is overdue
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God
I would say whats on my mind
I'd ask for wisdom to let compassion rule this world
Until these times
If I wrote a note to God
I'd say please help us find our way
End all the bitterness, put some tenderness in our hearts
And I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

No, no no no
We can't do this on our own
So

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is overdue
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God

Woops..

I can still taste the alcohol in my throat.. =p

Today..

I had a great day today.. realised that i love doing outdoor activities.. I did so many things i never did before (psst, bcos i din dare to).. i guess frens' pressure does work.. I did kayaking, the fourwheeled motor thing, paintball shooting, went on slides like soo many times etc etc etc.. Yes, i'm happy doing these, though some really squeezed my heart out.. i wish i could frequently be this active, rather than watching movies, onlining all the time..It's very very different..Thanks kim & pookie, for grabbing my arm so tight not letting it go when i tried to escape (so so many times) during those queues =p

It is indeed a place that awakened so many of my memories.. Sometimes i would just stare at one spot and emo, daydream, wondering why everything's so different now.. I played the waterpark this time.. I feel like, finally,  i've managed to accomplish something i used to regret.. Til now, I still couldnt understand ur reason at that time..

They did the same things we did, they look like what we used to be.. But yet, they seem so different from us.. I'm really happy for them, I am.. but just that, i wish i could be as happy too.. y does it seem so hard..? I tink i noe they'll make it, through things we didnt..

Can't believe i'm crying already.. it's been a tough day holding them back..

Disappointment =(

I met 'him' today.. he was the kind i've always wanted.. characteristics that matched my check list.. but yet Whyyyy...

I've never done somethin lik this b4, not mentioning even thinkin about doing it >.< he electrocuted me i guess...

I didn't even have the guts to ask him that question, that question which pookie did ask in the end, at the time where aik thai shouted : omigoddd... and rushed towards the door.. MANnnn.. i'm such a chicken..

He, not only turned out to be 2 years younger, but also has a long time gf, who was a cheerleader, and is very pretty, whereby even his twin brother has a girlfriend too..

I kinda suspect that God's just testing my courage, asking me how badly i want this.. in which i screwed it up..

I wonder if i were the one who did it, would everything be much different now?

Ah, forget about it..

Ahh holiday..

Finally, I'm able to enjoy a whole day by rotting at home.. ALL i did was watch movies, one after another.. Well as expected, ALL Rom-Coms! Love Sandra Bullock, she always play roles with interesting personalities..Jude Law in The Holiday was very handsome and attractive indeed.. I've always been looking out for some guy like that, who cries, sweet to little girls, smiles ever so charmingly and knows how to sew.. To me, that's not being girly at all.. Instead, that's somethin that warms up my heart like a hot choc! Although non-progressive at all, i grade this day an A day.. for being so calm and serene =)