Pathetic me...

I've been really not myself lately... unusually down.. it's not like i want to be like this, it's jus out of my hands.. i love this song.. it calms me down, gives me comfort i guess? 

Ppl think i push things too hard.. want too much of a plan to work.. but today i finally realise, they're actually right.. even if the start is perfect, it doesn't mean that it's supposed to end well.. thinkin back, i actually believed in perfect ending you noe? now everything jus seems not possible anymore..

doom, my finals are so close, n here are these distractions.. hate to admit but moms are always right.. now, how could i clear this mess? when the mess is myself? sigh.. watever..

Jealousy

I hate facebook, for letting me watch so many friends of mine, gathering overseas so far away, under such a beautiful weather, among beautiful sceneries of the many seasons, looking at beautiful buildings that i yearn to to be in..

Gosh, really duno wats gotten into me.. Honestly, i dun really mind myself not living within beautiful environments.. but i pretty much hoped alot, that i could study in those big university campus that resemble grand castles, feeling wat a real uni student shud feel.. because those are experiences i cant ever get, even if i earn alot of money in the future.. Sigh, why arent i smart enuf?

I'm feeling so weird, have been dwelling in this for days.. i admit, i feel very jealous, especially when i see pics of ppl i noe, that are so beautiful, taking pictures that i cant take..

Well, wat can i do? i shall hafta work very hard, and put this as the first among my aims.. most importantly, to bring my mom to those places, and let her see, how beautiful is this world =)

This is a meaningless post...

Indeed it is meaningless..=) jus droppin by to say tat i'm bored but at the same time freaking out as finals are nearing.. i've got weak knees already.. scared scared =S

Oh, suzz.. i totally un how u feel bout current happenings.. i'm also feeling awkward over those continuous unfortunate events... why so 'hak' wan ar..sigh... better get some luck charm, hehe.. dun too sad over ur baby k? cheers ^^