HaHa.. Dunno whether my title understandable anot.. it means latest stuff la, u noe..i mean, u understand rite? nvm.. =p
hmm.. Jus ended my job at michelin last week..and loads of things came up straight after it.. from my relatives stayin here, to teachin cousin, to the most superbly frustratin thing! uni stuff.. grr.. utar bill's due date was saturday.. i was struggling on whether to go.. well, heart already said no! no! n it looks like as if there were many other routes..when my mom had already fixed oni one way out for me..darn..i felt as if trapped.. i so so so dun wan.. n i dunno y i jus dun want to, like bad prediction or somethin.. rebelious? nah, it's like the claustraphobic part comin out of me..strangling me or something.. phew, how to breathe man?
haihz.. so when she was waking me up tat miserable mornin, i am 100%ly trying to fool myself that it's jus a dream.. n i did, woke up late.. added up with those weird ppl fixing road on a saturday noon causing a big jam jus adds on my guilt.. when i reached there, the office was already closed.. well, of course i get blames n scoldings.. sigh.. n i actually felt relived it happened this way.. but this means i hafta do more.. mom wun let me out of this.. hafta go back there to settle it on mon morn..
gotta pull my butt out of my bed that mornin, 7.30am on a non-workin mon mornin! walau! i felt as if i'm a walkin zombie..supposed to go there alone.. well, mom workin, younger sis got drivin exam, hafta drop elder sis at her uni on the way there.. luckily wei wen agreed to accompany me there.. or else i would NEVER! NEVER do it!hmmph..haihz.. at 9.00, i was already there..but damn! once they saw my overdued bill, they told me immediately that they cant do anythin, n i hafta write an appeal letter n settle it in pj utar.. grrrrrrrrrr....i felt like barkin at that moment..
i mean, i am already feeling soooo bad for goin against my heart n now, another thing? argh... well, lucky wei wen's here to help me draft it... ooookkkkkaaayyyy then..wrote a long n tedious excuse then head towards pj utar to settle it! at that time i was startin to worry, whether they would accept it? not that i'm freaked out on havin no place to study o somethin, more like 'shit if i dun get this done, my mom would fry me alive!' well, luckily.. they jus accepted it like a normal procedure..like wei wen say, they're jus frightenin me..was really relieved...mom would keep me alive.. sigh.. in another part, i officially got myself stucked.. haihz..
i really really dunno y i felt so bad about this, i really dun.. sigh..maybe bcause i hope for a plce with more english practised? it's like i'm 100% ly confident that even if i dun use my mandarin, it'll still be as good as new (use this correct anot ar?) but i'm oso 100%ly sure that if i dun pratice my english, it'll be gone forever... n the people there gave me a feeling of me not being able to mix with them.. ya, i feel intimidated..ppl say it easily, jus choose ur course n dun care too much bout where u're goin.. but i really really cant face it man.. although i solved a prob, that is settled where to go, but i am increasedly worried.. argh, scared la, i really am...
sigh......it starts on the 23rd..i oni haf like a week to enjoy? sigh... goodbye man...sigh...
oh, nearly forgot the being tagged thing.. i think i dun really enjoy this topic.. haha.. cause i jus had a simple little answer? y do i blog? to express my feelings at least to someone when there's no one around me that i could express to lo..i'm not that good in expressin my feelings using the talkin way la, dunno y.. k la, bye bye..
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