oh I feel so emo

Suddenly its as if i can hear my heart break again
like the sound of shattered glasses onto the ground
oh, i suck..
i thinked too much again..
the jerk is still me, circling those thoughts that i nvr shud hav
ever ever think about again

can't stop feeling stupid..
mayb i am that stupid..
time after time, yet it seems like
as if i never did learn from my lessons
or as if there weren't any lessons before

of many obstacles i faced lately,
i'm satisfied of none of my solutions
i'm not smart enuf..
well, guess i hafta suck that up
wonder if in the future
there would be plastic surgery for brains

i suck in socializing
i always confess to ppl how i exactly feel
it's either i'm giving my security up
or i end up offending them
most of the time, i rely duno
wat am i speaking or doing actually

oh, sometimes i feel so tired...
but there's no one behind
to tell me they understand,
there's no shoulder empty or free
to lean on and rest

although its a tough fact,
but i rely do noe.. it's because of me
it's because of who i am
that frightens ppl away
that pushes ppl to edges that they
nvr want to talk to me or see me ever again

i suck i really do
guess i really hafta suck that fact up too
Hmm