Loser

i feel so sick, 

physically, my throat hurts like crazy,

mentally, i'm so sick of P2, so sick of myself

there was a time when i felt so right

everything was exactly how i wanted it to be

prim and proper, in all aspects

i tink i forgot that life doesn't just pause there 

things progressed, evolved, changed

before i know it,

everything's so messy right now

i haf multiple crisis, even internal conflicts inside me

big BIG chunks of them cannot be solved

i just simply couldnt find a way

this feelings disgusts me

like its spitting in my face, announcing me as a loser

and me, swallowing the fact that i'm defeated