I SO can't believe it..

Something bizarre happened today..

It was around 3 plus this afternoon, when i was chatting leisurely with my sis through the webcam, while waiting for my mom to pick me for 2nd round of Jcard day at 1utama..

As i was chatting with her, i heard some loud sounds (things dropping down) from my next door neighbour's house.. Out of curiosity, i went over to my living room window to peep at my neighbour's porch..

Then i saw a weird scene, besides being surprised that the car parked in his house was'nt his car, the car was also packed with stuff as if he was going to move away.. It was indeed strange, so i stood there for a while just to wait n c whether he was really moving away.. but no figure came into my sight throughout my wait..

During my wait, i inspected the scene.. it was pretty weird that there were clothes and shoes stuffed into the car.. but the house gate was closed and locked.. Moreover, the car looked like a brand new one, even equipped with a big screen that i believe runs a 'GPS system'.. As i thought maybe he bought a new car, i never suspected anything and went back chatting with my sis..

After some time, i went over to the window AGAIN, to see whether my mom's here yet.. but still, i saw the same scene without anybody there.. At around 4 plus, i heard the sound my neighbour's gate banging closed loudly, and the sound of a car speeding off.. This time, i ran over towards the window, and that car was gone..the gate was locked back..AND still, I did not suspect ANYTHING 0.0

At 8 plus on my way home, then i remembered wat happened this afternoon and asked my mom if she knows that our neighbour bought a brand new car, coolly featured with GPS -.- that was the exact moment i reached home, saw my neighbour's house litted brightly with many strangers inside..

As soon as i parked my car, my maid quickly told us wat happened.. she said that many police entered my neighbour's house, and that it has been robbed 0.0

my jaw dropped immediately, i could not believe how stupid am I.

HOW in the world am i sooo stupeeed??

The thieves were dam smart.. they totally tricked me!!

they PURPOSELY drove a beautiful car,
PURPOSELY parked into my neighbour's house
PURPOSELY kept my neighbour's gate closed
PURPOSELY did not have any conversation with each other
PURPOSELY forcefully put the lock back onto the gate

all these all these just to keep stupid neighbours like ME from suspecting them!!

man.. my neighbour's sooo sad and worried now..
the thieves were too good, they ransacked the WHOLE house
leaving no spot unraveled.. no drawer unopened..
all accessories were gone,
passport, my neighbour's mom IC, fixed deposit docs,
even clothes and shoes ALL GONE
the biggest worry is that the thieves might have withdrew all of my neighbour's mom's fixed deposit from the bank..

OH i feel so bad.. Oh God, please let them get caught please...
Why let the stupid me be the ONLY witness to this crime???
Neighbours, I am truly so sorry i did not do anything.. =(

Perfect Sunset..

My gaze, set upon the dimming sunset,
A sudden exhaustion is taking over me,
When would the shoulder I yearn for arrive?
Or am i even waiting for it..

Shivering, I noe I'm afraid,
Of what the past haunts me,
It filled me with ponders and doubts,
Of whether i should expect it after all..

Funny, my heart feels like glass,
Solid yet heavy and fragile,
I know i had enough, it's time..
I'll make it a little less transparent now

Swiftly, i shut the tall, great doors ,
As darkness slowly looms into the scene,
I watch the walls within my echoing castle,
Looking forward to yet another Perfect dream..

oh I feel so emo

Suddenly its as if i can hear my heart break again
like the sound of shattered glasses onto the ground
oh, i suck..
i thinked too much again..
the jerk is still me, circling those thoughts that i nvr shud hav
ever ever think about again

can't stop feeling stupid..
mayb i am that stupid..
time after time, yet it seems like
as if i never did learn from my lessons
or as if there weren't any lessons before

of many obstacles i faced lately,
i'm satisfied of none of my solutions
i'm not smart enuf..
well, guess i hafta suck that up
wonder if in the future
there would be plastic surgery for brains

i suck in socializing
i always confess to ppl how i exactly feel
it's either i'm giving my security up
or i end up offending them
most of the time, i rely duno
wat am i speaking or doing actually

oh, sometimes i feel so tired...
but there's no one behind
to tell me they understand,
there's no shoulder empty or free
to lean on and rest

although its a tough fact,
but i rely do noe.. it's because of me
it's because of who i am
that frightens ppl away
that pushes ppl to edges that they
nvr want to talk to me or see me ever again

i suck i really do
guess i really hafta suck that fact up too
Hmm

So sorry...

I'm so sorry...
wish i have the guts to say it to you..
I know i should never treat you this way
but i thought i have to so that you would remember
so I did it in the end..
Sorry,
I hope you won't feel too sad from this
I know it sounds wrong but
I really did this for your own good
So sorry =(

不了情

心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老

这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道

回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

已不见你暮暮与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道

回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了...

是不是该做的都做了
就是时候真正放手了？