Always soo tired n got no mood to blog actually, but jus tryin to complain a bit i guess.. damn work, made me realise how unsure am i towards my choice of courses, and i realised no one could help me wit it.. they themselves dun even noe wat to tell u, or perhaps might be thinkin 'even i myself was not so picky' and ignored me.. i think i would like studyin accountancy, but i would hate to live in a live, forced to do those same audits n accounts everyday from early mornin till late night surviving on bread during lunch + without using any thinkin skills...i want a job, using more of creativity, leadership, those who would appreciate my ideas, my jokes, my analysing skills at least (jus bcause i think that that's the only good thing i have,?)
no need ask, i still cant figure out wat.. other courses gave me an impression that i wun b able to get any job out of it.. i soooo annoy myself.. plus i'm startin to perhaps, regret somethin i did, maybe i really am not prepared for it, i am such a selfish n calculative person with somewhat ego n unstable mood swings.. how could i even consider that i could share a little somethin with someone?i would only hurt them, then myself..yet i did it, and dragged another person along into this deep trench (dun even noe if i'm spelling it correctly) stupid..*sigh*
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