HAPPY CNY! =)

I love CNY

of course the ang paos played a HUGE part

and then there are those scrumptous meals

also, getting to meet people u haven't met in a gazillion years

BUT

There's somethin i really hate about CNY

about going visiting to relatives' houses on CNY

their DOGS -.-

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i'm really Really REALLY EXXTREMELY

afraid of dogs 0.0

Moreover, German shepherd O.O

i was totally about to go CRAZY when my relatives

of all things suggested that i should overcome my fear

and decided to let their GIGANTIC dog run free

not joking at all seriously,

that dog is bigger than a 12 year old kid

and at least twice bigger than me

if i get on my knees like a dog..0.o

no matter how they tried to convince me 

i was totally not falling for it

HELLO, shudnt i start with the smaller dogs first?

n so that dog kept walking around.... and around....

and then i couldnt pay attention to anything i was doing, or conversation i was in

Even my younger sis who isn't afraid of anything but cats

told me she was shivering when that dog walked past her

TOO BIG... yes, that's wat she said

my mom had to close her eyes n turn around to hug me 

when that dog went to her n licked her

oh god, i feel so relieved that this is all behind me now

n hope that next year's CNY don't come too soon

i would give up all my angpaos just to not visit that relative again

still shivering even with the thought of that dog O.O

Duno y, but this CNY, i miss my grandmother a little more

i could still remember her, quite clearly...

of how we bullied her when we were still kids

steal her 'tongkat' and make her fall

and the part where she would never complain to my mom

no matter how badly we bullied her

and instead, talk good about someone who bullied her O.O

'Don't keep grudge, that's wat she'll always tell us'

I love her, how i wish i had the chance to tell her

how i wish i was a little more grown up when she was still around

so that i could talk to her more

She used to like to read our palms

then tell us, what kind of person we would be

what kind of boyfriend we would get in the future.. HEHE

'Be more humble, Be kind, Be more hardworking, 

but don't be sad if u failed, at least u tried..'

ahh.. really miss her nagging us.. miss her loud voice around the house

She's a one in a million person

whom you could never find anything bad to say about

and whom is so kind, you could never find another..

it still breaks my heart alot, remembering her days at the care centre..

still rmbr, i didn't shed a single tear that day she left us

firstly, because someone told us its bad to cry at funerals

you would make her sad, and thus reluctant to move on..

secondly, i really don't wish for her to spend another day in the care centre

not being able to talk, nor walk.. i noe how bad, and sad she has been feeling those days

I believe in karma,

At least no matter where she is now,

i am very sure she's in good hands

because she, more than anyone else.. Deserves it

P.S.: Yesterday, we finally told our mom about how we used to bully our grandmother..
         she: O.O     *we: giggles*