Oh My...

Oh i'm so worried, i'm SO WORRIED!!!
i noe wat ppl would say when i tell them this,
they would say, y not study harder before exam?
i did. i grounded myself at home
for the longest time i ever did in my life
studied day n nite, nite n day..
the fact is, i'm worried before exam,
and even more after the exam!

Why??? tink lah come on,
before the exam, i could still study harder,
make more effort, do something!
After? there's nuthin more i could do
except PRAY @_@
yes it's my break now,
but i'm totally not enjoying it..
too free, gave me more time to ponder and worry
i couldn't eat, i couldn't sleep
i'm oh so worried
why can't i be granted a part time job,
just so to get these frustrations off my mind..
why can't there be more FREE frens like me,
so i could talk crap n forget about worrying..
=(((

i'm so aware of wat would happen if i were to fail again
first of all, the time limit i gave myself would be up,
i would hafto continue the rest while workin..
i would hafto go through the TORTURE sessions AGAIN!
i would waste more money and time
my ptptn time limit would also be up
my future employer, if there would be one
will definitely question me the reason for these failures
and my mouth would be wide open with no sound comin out of it
wat ppl said would've come true,
that i'm trying to achieve something
beyond my means and capability
that i'm actually not so smart after all
my dreams would be destroyed
I would be devastated..


Oh dear god, please spare me the 50 marks..Please!