Horrible

As my title says, i feel horrible.. not because of my results though..i actually think i did not bad.. i was really predicting myself failing.. well, i got an A for General paper, two Bs for Maths n Bio, gave me a shock..Bio man..oh, quite disappointed for maths, a little more to A -.-".. C for Chem.. it's the best i could ever get for that subject.. i din put much time studyin it u noe.. phew, u couldn't imagine how relieved i feel..

Was very very happy when i knew bout our results.. but.. many things after that made me lost my good mood totally..first there's my sis messing with my car using schedule.. people around me, n people close to me..either i'm too sensitive, or i'm too sensitive and they are insensitive.. haihz.. i'll save that for just myself.. no one would understand anyway...i had enuff number of ppl who think that i haf bad temper already..

whole mind of mine kept thinkin i wana go somewhere.. but, there's no where to go.. missed rachel n xiu hui alot.. at least they really know me for myself, n dun get offended all the time..or pissed even when i ignored them..it's really funny though, when we're angry at each other, we would jus kept nagging n nagging about each other's fault,if serious, yelled it out, n we're frens again, haha..we could really spend time together without worries at all, so freely n happily.. dun quite noe how to express it.. it will take one n a half year more to hav those times again.. sigh..

i've nvr stop thinkin of that prob though, & it's really tiring me out.. after today's result, well, i feel really happy cause i dun hafta repeat my college! wee..and i can finally get to somewhere far far away from here n start my life anew =) conclusion, abandon that unsolvable prob.. i dun wana keep feeling guilty n plead ppl to talk to me again, nor keep blaming them for not being able to understand & couldn't be straightforward about probs.. it's just out of my hands i guess..

so, faraway land, here i come!! (^.^)V