Not understanding...

well, yesterday..i rotted the whole day.. jus stayed at home lazing around.. wana go out so much jus to escape from thinking alone.. i hate it..so while chatting with beeky online..we planned plans for the night.. we went sakae for dinner.. well, din enjoyed it tat much..the service was bad..i wasn't tat happy either.. it shouldn't be this way.. i love sushi..

later in the night, meti finally came..she was extremely late haha, bad jam.. then we went to the laundry bar there to take a sip, or perhaps dance a little.. but alas, there wasn't a dance floor.. so we jus sat n chit chat.. me n beeky shared a pina colada.. it tasted really good.. n surprisingly, it was finished very quickly.. and i start to feel weird too.. it's as if someone set fire on my ears.. i felt like i was having a high fever..

i tot it's gonna be better after a while.. but it didn't.. instead, i felt my face throbbing along with my heart beat, following the loud music there too.. haha.. it was a funny feeling.. i didn't realise how red my face n neck was till i went to the toilet.. man, soo embarassing.. it was super red, n ppl jus kept staring at me.. n when i was leaving, the guard even stopped my car to ask whether i was fit to drive..had a great time yesterday, we haven't gathered like this since very long ago=)

i'm not drunk k? i could still see the number of fingers ivan put up.. and at least i din go hug some stranger or laugh weirdly.. i jus talked exceptionally loud, n felt a bit blur.. that's all.. meti say it was bcause i hav low tolerance towards alcohol.. wow, jus half a pina colada.. so swt!!! i think wat ppl say is true.. it's not how much u drank.. it's how u feel when u're taking it..bcause i've took tat pina colada many times b4, and nuthin happened to me.. in my record, only stuff with tequila n red wine could make me drunk n red all over..weird..

i'm still in that bad situation.. that drink really helped, i didn't hafta cry myself to sleep last night..but i still teared this morning.. i think my tear glend is spoiled that's y..but all in all, i'm really calmed down now, not angry or extremely sad anymore.. just a bit unhappy n worried.. i'm so stupid.. i dun even noe wat really happened, n totally blank bout wat should i do.. sigh..i'm so stupid..